Life has been...well, in a way of saying it, a roller coaster ride of emotions. I've been filled with lotsa good, and bad feeling lately. More to the latter actually. It's like I'm anxiously waiting for something bad to happen. Like real bad. I think the feeling has subdued a bit, but it still there, at the back of my mind and heart, nudging me once in a while =/
I think it has gotta do with what my mum told me. Two of her colleagues died within this month if I'm not mistaken. And it got me thinking, what if it was me? What if it was her? What if it was him? What if?
I think most of you already know I'm not going back this summer. I'm OK with it. I'm OK with not being able to celebrate Aidil Fitri with my family. What I'm not OK with is, the probability of something bad to happen while I'm not there.
May you guys are safe and blessed by Allah.
Honestly, I cried a bit while typing this :'(
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